Should I hapi o not???

09.11.2012
Today I also don't know whether I should happy or not...
The thing that make me happy is because of today is my beloved mummy birthday...
And there are so many people celebrating with her...
And we brought her favorite ice cake ( BASKIN ROBBINS )... Mints + Vanila
But the thing make me sad is I dream that Bebe together back with Yu Ting...
This make feel so sad...
My dream like reality...
I feel that he still love Yu Ting...
I feel that I just the replacement of Yu Ting...
I feel so sad...
Why the CHONG YUIE THIEN always and keep disturb-ing my LIFE????
What I pay to her is more than what I done...
But why she still like to keep disturbing me???
Why????
Can anyone tell me how????
How only my Bebe will fully love me????
Or he already try his best to love me????
Why I until now still can't feel the LOVE????
Izit I too stupid????
Last time he won't beat me but now he will...
I feel like want to cry....
I really don't know I should happy or sad....
Who can tell me???