why???

17.11.12
That few day both of us keep watching how people propose, and wedding video.
Suddenly feel like want to marry... xP
Don't know next time how he propose to me leh???
Will it surprise???
But my dream propose is can at a very large lavender field...
+ snow-ing...
But actually all of this wont happen de...
Because here is Malaysia...
Actually all this are not the most important the most important is the dialog that he want to say with me... hehe...
I dun want ppl help him to prepare what to say...
I just wan what he say is came from his truly heart...
I want to know how much he love me...
Because his love to me is important then lavender field + snow...
But izit he will understand????

Should I hapi o not???

09.11.2012
Today I also don't know whether I should happy or not...
The thing that make me happy is because of today is my beloved mummy birthday...
And there are so many people celebrating with her...
And we brought her favorite ice cake ( BASKIN ROBBINS )... Mints + Vanila
But the thing make me sad is I dream that Bebe together back with Yu Ting...
This make feel so sad...
My dream like reality...
I feel that he still love Yu Ting...
I feel that I just the replacement of Yu Ting...
I feel so sad...
Why the CHONG YUIE THIEN always and keep disturb-ing my LIFE????
What I pay to her is more than what I done...
But why she still like to keep disturbing me???
Why????
Can anyone tell me how????
How only my Bebe will fully love me????
Or he already try his best to love me????
Why I until now still can't feel the LOVE????
Izit I too stupid????
Last time he won't beat me but now he will...
I feel like want to cry....
I really don't know I should happy or sad....
Who can tell me???

How stupid I am

16.08.2012
Today I only know how to change the blog time...
So stupid...
All the previou post I lazy want to change all became messy...
But nvm the blog only u will view so is ok even it is messy...

Disappointed

16.08.2012
I feel so disappointed...
My mummy already invite him 2 times...
But he still giving the same answer...
Why he want to reject by giving a stupid answer???
If he really don't want to follow then just say...
But why he want to use his brother and grandpa be an excuse???
I know until now he still can't accept me as his "WIFE"...
But I already accept him as my "HUSBAND"...
I will get more hurt if I still continue + love him...
Izit I should stop loving him???
Izit I will same like xiao mei???
Already together for 1year+++
I don't want to give up!!!!
But izit only I don't want give up or he have same feeling like me???
I really don't know...

A broken heart

I told him that I want to broke with him... When I was angry time I say that I did not love him anymore... But when I cool down time... I feel that I still love him... But how ever... I give him the chance... He don't want... This afternoon he did not send any message to me... That means he also agree to broke with me... This is my first time that when I was broken heart... Feel want to cry but can't cry... But the tear will automatic flow... Izit this call cry??? At last he choose JINO... Not MELISSA LING... Why I so stupid??? Because of him... I change my English name to Melissa... ( coz yeenee English name is Melissa ) Izit now I change to JINO LING he will choose me again??? This came to my mind...

Jino???

Today we argue because of a girl name JINO... This girl are so pretty... Work at BBQ Plaza ( same place with BEBE ) Everyday when Bebe reach home he sure will talk bout this girl... When he talk bout this girl I can feel Bebe very happy or excited... Even talk bout me... He also won't like this... Maybe is I think too much... But we still argue... This make me no mood to work... But when he break he got SMS give me... This make me forgive him...

Heart broken

29.05.2012 Now I only know that actually what I do also is useless... In his heart... His mum always are right even his mum doing wrong thing... If his mum say I'm a bad girl he will agree what ever his mum say... This really make me so heart pain...

Sick is Bad or Good???

Today finally sick already... "FINALLY SICK" izit feel very weird??? Where got people say finally sick... But I'm the 1 say this word... Not because lazy to work or study but is just about a care, and love. When I sick... My BEBE will very care me, and love me more... This make me feel like I'm the most happy people in the world... If I no sick all this care and love I can't get it... Even sick is very painful but I feel is worth... This sick make me can get all the care and love that I want... I will try to hurt myself to get this little care and love... Am I stupid????

Feel very unwell

Today is only the forth days work...
But already feel very unwell...
Got some fever...
Got some body pain...
But still need to work...
Just now send a mesage to Bebe...
But he like no feeling...
This make me feel more unwell...
So sad...
T@T

25.05.2012

This day...work at WONG KOK (third days)
I feel very tired...
Even very tired...
But when I see dao BEBE...
Feel very comfortable and happy...
With eating a vanila ice cream brought at McDonald...
A smile face...
Let me feel very happy...



But however...
Reach home all this happy loss...
Comfortable loss...
I now only know that he don't like my mummy...
This make me so fan...
I just hope what I do also is want our future good...


 

Gud o Bad???

2day...
I have tell he all thing..
He T.T...
I oso T.T..
But at least..
He noe my feeling..
N i oso noe he feeling liao...
I reli hope he dun leave me alone..
Reli very sad...

If he leave me alone...

So please dont leave me alone...